THE MIND IS AN ANCIENT AND FAMOUS CAPITAL 


The mind is a city like London, 
Smoky and populous: it is a capital 
Like Rome, ruined and eternal, 
Marked by the monuments which no one 
Now remembers. For the mind, like Rome, contains 
Catacombs, aqueducts, amphitheatres, palaces, 
Churches and equestrian statues, fallen, broken or soiled. 
The mind possesses and is possessed by all the ruins 
Of every haunted, hunted generation?s celebration. 


?Call us what you will: we are made such by love.? 
We are such studs as dreams are made on, and 
Our little lives are ruled by the gods, by Pan, 
Piping of all, seeking to grasp or grasping 
All of the grapes; and by the bow-and-arrow god, 
Cupid, piercing the heart through, suddenly and forever. 


Dusk we are, to dusk returning, after the burbing, 
After the gold fall, the fallen ash, the bronze, 
Scattered and rotten, after the white null statues which 
Are winter, sleep, and nothingness: when 
Will the houselights of the universe 
Light up and blaze? 
For it is not the sea 
Which murmurs in a shell, 
And it is not only heart, at harp o?clock, 
It is the dread terror of the uncontrollable 
Horses of the apocalypse, running in wild dread 
Toward Arcturus?and returning as suddenly ... 

THE FEAR AND DREAD OF THE MIND OF THE OTHERS 


?The others were the despots of despair? 


The river?s freshness sailed from unknown sources? 


... They snickered giggled, laughed aloud at last, 
They mocked and marvelled at the statue which was 
A caricature, as strained and stiff, and yet 
A statue of self-love!?since self-love was 
To them, truly my true love, how, then, was I a stillness of nervousness 
So nervous a caricature: did they suppose 
Self-love was unrequited, or betrayed? 
They thought I had fallen in love with my own face, 
And this belief became the night-like obstacle 
To understanding all my unbroken suffering, 
My studious self-regard, the pain of hope, 
The torment of possibility: 
How then could I have expected them to see me 
As I saw myself, within my gaze, or see 
That being thus seemed as a toad, a frog, a wen, a mole. 
Knowing their certainty that I was only 
A monument, a monster who had fallen in love 
With himself alone, how could I have 
Told them what was in me, within my heart, trembling and passionate 
Within the labyrinth and caves of my mind, which is 
Like every mind partly or wholly hidden from itself? 
The words for what is in my heart and in my mind 
Do not exist. But I must seek and search to find 
Amid the vines and orchards of the vivid world of day 
Approximate images, imaginary parallels 
For what is my heart and dark within my mind: 
Comparisons and mere metaphors: for all 
Of them are substitutes, both counterfeit and vague: 
They are, at most, deceptive resemblances, 
False in their very likeness, like the sons 
Who are alike and kin and more unlike and false 
Because they seem the father?s very self: but each one is 
?Although begotten by the same forbears?himself, 
The unique self, each one is unique, like every other one, 
And everything, older or younger, nevertheless 
A passionate nonesuch who has before has been. 
Do you hear, do you see? Do you understand me now, and how 
The words for what is my heart do not exist? 

THE RIVER WAS THE EMBLEM OF ALL BEAUTY: ALL 


... 
The river was the abundant belly of beauty itself 
The river was the dream space where I walked, 
The river was itself and yet it was?flowing and freshening? 
A self anew, another self, or self renewed 
At every tick of eternity, and by each glint of light 
Mounting or sparkling, descending to shade and black 
?Had I but told them my heart, told how it was 
Taunted at noon and pacified at dusk, at starfall midnight 
Strong in hope once more, ever in eagerness 
Jumping like joy, would they have heard? How could they? 
How, when what they knew was, like the grass, 
Simple and certain, known through the truth of touch, another form and fountain of falsehood?s fecundity? 
Gazing upon their faces as they gazed 
Could they have seen my faces as whores who are 
Holy and deified as priestesses of hope 
?the sacred virgins of futurity? 
Promising dear divinity precisely because 
They were disfigured ducks who might become 
And be, and ever beloved, white swans, noble and beautiful. 
Could they have seen how my faces were 
Bonfires of worship and vigil, blazes of adoration and hope 
?Surely they would have laughed again, renewed their scorn, 
Giggled and snickered, cruel. Surely have said 
This is the puerile mania of the obsessed, 
The living logic of the lunatic: 
I was the statue of their merriment, 
Dead and a death, Pharoah and mon