Here you will find the Long Poem The House Delirious of poet Leon Gellert
Come in and tread thou quietly Within the duskiness. This twilight thou dost see Is but the moment passing. Make no guess Upon these ragged tapestries Horrid with time And stained with memories. The undisturbed grime Of cryptic years Conceals those happenings, Unbrushed by recollection and unwashed by tears. The music moans, It is the past that sings! These corridors! These corridors and halls! This change of light and gathered mystery: These whisperings; this silent dust that palls The buried gone are mine-a solemn property. Here with padded feet Within the night I move with muffled beat; Head-bowed in shame at some foul sight; Forever raking in some dim recess, Peering at deeds and thoughts; Grey things and dead;- a dreadfulness: An ignorance; a bittered passage fraught With dampness and sin From some vile soakage, All alone I pause at tombs where none must enter in, And see my name deep-carved upon the stone. Come in! Come in! If thou hast half a will To stay and learn This wilderness, bestill Thine asking tongue and follow me, nor turn Upon thy track. My rooms! My rooms! My darling, hated rooms, so still, so sad! How in my dreams the tall wall looms And rises in threat! Mad! Mad! Bestir thy limbs, and follow noiselessly, This way! This way! I hear the murmur of the outside sea, And the coming of the day. The yonder arches with their feeble strength Have been my pride; And when the length Of this main hall has died Within forgetfulness, will yet live long; And those ambitious stairs in ruined disarray May still be worthy of a song At Judgement Day. These avenues of searching youth Wind on, and wind again. They brought no treasure-just a truth,- A knowing,-and with knowledge, pain. Come though with me! Look not on here, and here! But loiter now on this, my fondest memory, My sweetest tear. My ferns! My fountains! And my singing birds! And this? Aye, this was love. Oh, what a place! Here rang those ardent words Of youth to the wild sky above. No roof impeded The calling of her name. No roof was needed No indiscretion here, no shame. Often, often in the summer-still Of night, I creep within the star-domed space, And stand upon these stone until She comes,-she always comes,-a smile upon her face. A smile-and yet-and yet- I sometimes wish the soothing dust Would sprinkle here, and I forget, And all theses golden railings mould in rust. But still the playing waters rise and purl A plaintive song, - singing to stars. And all because a girl Has come within the bars Of an existence, painting all therein With coloured melodies; And quieting that sordid din With witcheries. These perfumed flowers here may never fade; This passioned orchid, and that rose?s folds; Yon nodding violet within the shade;- All bear eternal blossoming that memory holds. Pass on, though pleasant youth, thou canst not linger long. The tune has passed with time, and left an echoed song. But now away, and keep apace with me! Within this sorry vault, in slow decay., My earthly store of learning lies all rottingly- Disused and dusty-dustier every day. This chest-unloose the lid-contains The robes of life, the masks of mind, Veneers and cloaks, asmear with wanton stains That Vice has left behind. Uplift that shirt of mail that saved the soul And guarded well the tender bud that grew, And kept unsoiled the under-roll Of white from crime it never knew. I wore it constantly awhile; But in a youthful rashness put it by, And wore this undervest, and with a smile Of doubtful bravery, stood naked to the sky. Uphold the garment, once so white, that failed To `fend me from those evil things That tore these holes with claws long-nailed, And left it yellow with imaginings. Gaze on the purple garment of conceit Adorned with tattered trappings of a cheap Display! `Tis meet! `Tis meet! The folly still outlives the fool?s decay! These rooms I know not! They are full of sleep, And haunting shapes of dreams That flicker silently, and creep Within the darkness from the beams Of our perception; time long-lost; Dreams long-dreamed and never known; Deeds of unthought cost; Seeds, long sown; Rooms of cloud and mistiness Where lurking shadows wait; Rooms of sorrowed shiftiness Breathing opiate. And so the structure stands, time-built of brain- wrought stone, Where I have wandered, and will wander yet Until each bone Of this frail body rots, the ruin falls and I forget. But still I build each stone on rocking stone. I have my plans-sometimes they fail. A Greater Mind Than mine has other plans, his Will be done Until the last lone brick i