Here you will find the Poem If Only I Had Known of poet Aleksey Konstantinovich Tolstoy
If only I had known, had realised, I would not have looked out of the window as the dashing young man rode along our street, his hat worn cockily, riding a frisky bay horse, hooves clattering, mane flying, rearing up before our windows! If I had only known, had realised, I would not have dressed up for him, or woven a scarlet ribbon into my hair; or risen so early, before dawn, or rush to the edge of the village, or got my feet soaked in dew, or watched the road to see if he would come along, falcon on his wrist. If I had only known, had realised! If I had only known, had realised, I would not have waited late into the evening, sitting sadly on the little hill near our old well, longing and hoping - Will he not come - my beloved, Will he not come to water his horse? If I had only known, had realised!