Frank O'Hara

Here you will find the Poem In Memory of My Feelings of poet Frank O'Hara

In Memory of My Feelings

My quietness has a man in it, he is transparent
and he carries me quietly, like a gondola, through the streets.
He has several likenesses, like stars and years, like numerals.

My quietness has a number of naked selves, 
so many pistols I have borrowed to protect myselves 
from creatures who too readily recognize my weapons 
and have murder in their heart!
				though in winter
they are warm as roses, in the desert
taste of chilled anisette.
At times, withdrawn,
I rise into the cool skies 
and gaze on at the imponderable world with the simple identification 
of my colleagues, the mountains. Manfred climbs to my nape, 
speaks, but I do not hear him,
I'm too blue.
An elephant takes up his trumpet, 
money flutters from the windows of cries, silk stretching its mirror 
across shoulder blades. A gun is "fired."
 One of me rushes
to window #13 and one of me raises his whip and one of me 
flutters up from the center of the track amidst the pink flamingoes, 
and underneath their hooves as they round the last turn my lips 
are scarred and brown, brushed by tails, masked in dirt's lust, 
definition, open mouths gasping for the cries of the bettors for the lungs 
of earth.
 So many of my transparencies could not resist the race! 
Terror in earth, dried mushrooms, pink feathers, tickets, 
a flaking moon drifting across the muddied teeth, 
the imperceptible moan of covered breathing,
 love of the serpent!
I am underneath its leaves as the hunter crackles and pants 
and bursts, as the barrage balloon drifts behind a cloud 
and animal death whips out its flashlight,
whistling
and slipping the glove off the trigger hand. The serpent's eyes 
redden at sight of those thorny fingernails, he is so smooth!
 My transparent selves
flail about like vipers in a pail, writhing and hissing 
without panic, with a certain justice of response 
and presently the aquiline serpent comes to resemble the Medusa.