Here you will find the Long Poem Returning of Issue of poet Henry Reed
Tomorrow will be your last day here. Someone is speaking: A familiar voice, speaking again at all of us. And beyond the windows? it is inside now, and autumn? On a wind growing daily harsher, small things to the earth Are turning and whirling, small. Tomorrow will be Your last day here, But not we hope for always. You cannot see through the windows If they are leaves or flowers. We hope that many of you Will be coming back for good. Silence, and stupefaction. The coarsening wind and the things whirling upon it Scour that rough stamping-ground where we so long Have spent our substance, As the trees are spending theirs. How much of mine have I spent, Father, oh father? How sorry we are to lose you I do not have to say, since the sergeant-major Has said it, the RSM has said it, and the colonel Has sent over a message to say that he also says it. Everyone sorry to lose us, And you, oh father, father, once sorry too. I think I can honestly say you are one and all of you now: Soldiers. Silence, and disbelief. A fact that will stand you In pretty good stead in the various jobs you go back to. I wish you the best of luck. Silence. And all of you know You can think of us here, as home. As home: a home we shall any of you welcome you back to. Most of you have, I know, some sort of work waiting for you, And the rest of you now being, thanks to us, fit and able, Will be bound to find something. I begin to be in want. Would any citizen of this country send me Into his fields? And Before I finalise: one thing about tomorrow I must make perfectly clear. Tomorrow is clear already: I saw myself once, but now am by time forbidden To see myself so: as the man who went evil ways, Till lie determined, in time of famine, to seek His father's home. Autumn is later down there: it should now be the time Of vivacious triumph in the fruitful fields. As he approached, he ran over his speeches of sorrow, Not less of truth for being much-rehearsed: The last distilment from a long and inward. Discourse of heartbreak. And The first thing you do, after first thing tomorrow morning, Is, those that leave not been previously detailed to do so, Which I think is the case in most cases, is a systematic Returning of issue. It is all-important You should restore to store one of every store issued. And in the case of two, two. And I, as always late, shall never know that lifted fear When the small hard-working master of those fields Looked up. I trembled. But his heart came out to me With a shout of compassion. And all my speech was only: 'Father, I have sinned against heaven, and am no more worthy To be called thy son.' But if I cried it, father, you could not hear me now, Where now you lie, crumpled in that small grave Like any withering dog. Your fields are sold and built on, Your lanes are filled with husks the swine reject. I scoop them in my hands. I have earned no more; and more I shall not inherit. And A careful check will be made of every such object That was issued to each personnel originally, And checked at issue. And let me be quite implicit: That no accoutrements, impedimentas, fittings, or military garments May be taken as souvenirs. The one exception is shirts, And whatever you wear underneath. These may be kept, those that wish. But the rest of the issue Must be returned, except who intend to rejoin In regular service. Silence. Which involves a simple procedure I will explain in a simple group to those that rejoin. Now, how many will that be? Silence. No one? No one at all? I see. Very well. I have up to now Spoken with the utmost of mildness. I speak so still, But it does seem to me a bit of a bloody pity, A bit un-bloody-feeling, after the all We have bloody done for you, you should sit on your dumb bloody arses, Just waiting like bloody milksops till I bloody dismiss you. Silence, embarrassed, but silent. And am I to break it, father, to break this silence? Is there no bloody man among you? Not one bloody single one? I will break the silence, father. Yes, sergeant, I will stay In a group of one. Father, be proud of me. Oh splendid, man! And for Christ's sake, tell them all, Why you are doing this. Why am I doing this? And is it too late to say no? Come speak out, man: tell us, and shame these bastards. I hope to shame no one, sergeant, in simply wishing To remain a personnel. I have been such a thing before. It was good, and simple; and it was the best I could do. Here is a man, men! Silence. Silence, indeed. How could I tell them, now? I have nowhere else to go? How could I say I have no longer gift or want; or how describe The inexplicable tears that filled my eyes When the poor sergeant